It’s crazy how fast time is going, I can’t believe it’s almost the end of the year. I haven’t been up to much, just the usual. Really can’t say my life is super busy, that would be a lie, I just have my plate full- and you know what? It feels good. I enjoy being occupied; in a positive way of course… Lately I have been drawing a bit, something I wasn’t doing for a while. Mostly women with natural hair; what can I say, it’s appealing to my eyes and it actually relaxes me a great deal. I’m also working on my willpower, the things is, I’m on a diet. I’m trying to lose all the weight I gained during the summer as a result of eating out so much. I am excited about many things in the future but I am trying my best to stay in the moment.
I want to share something that has been happening to me a lot for the past few months. It’s strange but at the same time very interesting. Almost everyday I have conversations with strangers, no it’s not work related. I mean, people I meet in public. They would sometimes be the one to start up the conversation or I would. Yes, I’m quite the social butterfly. :-) Well, what makes the encounters different, is the fact that they would tell me a lot, sometimes too much about their personal life. Sometimes I listen without saying anything, other times I try to find the right words. I met this one guy that was so angry at the world he scared me, yet we sat and engaged in a really interesting conversation. Then there was guy that told me he doesn’t believe when people say they love each other they really mean it. The kind face older lady that told me about Jesus, said I should not pay attention to the news and that I should pray a lot daily. The homeless man that offered me some of his coffee; I said no. When I offered him some of my food he said he was full. The drunken man in the park that I told to try Jesus… I saw him later with a guy, he told him I’m his friend. That made me smile. :-)
Somehow I always found the right words, or just know when to be silent. It’s quite refreshing, I enjoy each moment. I am learning and growing. I see everyone, I am everyone and everyone is me. I’m no lower or higher. Jesus is love and I’m trying my best to be.
4 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; 5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; 6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
8 Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away.
There is truth in every word.
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A little positivity: Words to live by.
This song does something to me
Whenever I hear it, I get so confused
It’s a SAD song but it makes me HAPPY, excited, sexy
I feel like dancing, flying, smiling, writing, loving, holding his hands
Touch his lips, face, tongue…
Touch touch touch- touch is what I want. I want to reach, stretch, squeeze, sweat- scream your name through clenched teeth- until we reach our climax.
I wrote this back in 2011 and thought I would repost it today. Last night someone told me of the possibility of speaking infront of hundreds, even thousands of people and I told them I couldn’t. He looked me dead in the eyes and said, “If you can believe it, you can achieve it.” His statement made me think of Dr. Tererai Trent.
When I was growing up I was afraid of the dark. Up until age 11, I remember climbing onto my parents’ bed. Of course they weren’t happy about waking up to me at their feet, either side of the bed or between them. However, they allowed it, and never stopped or scolded me. I’m not sure what it was about the dark that made me afraid, but all I know is, the dark, a long with silence was terrifying. I never saw anything out of sort, but I dreaded being alone. To an extent I still fear the dark but once I’m comfortable and I’m used to the environment there are no worries… Not knowing what my future holds, tents to be a bit nerve rocking at times, but whenever fear of the unknown resurfaces, I think of Dr. Tererai Trent.
I first saw this amazing woman, on The Oprah Winfrey Show a few months ago, when Oprah was doing updates on her most favorite guests. When I watched Tererai’s journey, it ignited my spirit and inspired me unlike any other story I’ve seen or heard.
For those of you who haven’t heard about Tererai, her story began in a very poor village in rural Zimbabwe. Her father beliefs were put to action when the boys were the only ones allowed to go to school, because they were considered breadwinners, while the only thing the girls had to look forward to, is marriage. However, Tererai wanted an education, so she learned to read and write from her brother’s book and secretly did his homework. When her bother’s teacher found out, she begged Tererai’s father to let her learn. He agreed, and she went to school for two terms before she was forced to marry at age 11. After her husband found out about her hope for an education, he would beat her. At 18 and a mother of three. In 1991 a visitor, Jo Luck, from Heifer International, gave her words of hope after Tererai mentioned her dreams of coming to the Untied States and getting her degrees. Jo’s words, simple, but powerful, “If you desire those things, it is achievable.” Sank into Tererai’s heart, and never left.
At 20 years-old Tererai’s mother encouraged her to write her dreams on a piece of paper, to place them inside a tin foil and bury it in the earth. That’s exactly what she did; in a pasture she herded cattle. She went even further, and covered them under a rock… She didn’t just place them there, she believed in them.
In 1998 Tererai, her husband and now five children immigrated to Oklahoma. Within three years, she earned a bachelor’s degree in agricultural education. In 2003 her husband was deported for abuse. However that didn’t stop her from obtaining her master’s degree that very same year. She later, went on to receive her Doctorate. After every achievement, she returned to where she burned her tin, dig, and checked each goal that has been accomplished.
In 2009 Tererai, now remarried, brought the same gift of hope she received from Jo Luck many years before, to the girls of her village. On a trip in 2009 she gave the girls pens, paper and tiny metal tins.
There were many people along the way, who raised Tererai’s spirit and reminded her that it was possible, even though her humble beginnings made it seemed impossible…. I bet it also took a lot of hard work, and inner strength, as she was told, maybe more often than not, that she shouldn’t or couldn’t, but she did.
The situation we are in may be by chance, but to stand still, or to complain without change, is always our choice. If we haven’t already, we should dig deep within ourselves and bury whatever it is that moves us, and work hard at making it a reality.
I remember myself at age 11, afraid of the dark, or even getting upset because I had to read before I got a chance to watch cartoon. To now, being afraid of the unknown, and sometimes not fighting hard enough, for the things I would love to achieve. Whenever I think of Tererai I feel ashamed of these feelings and memories. It reminds me that I need to wake up and step into my future with hope, desire and drive. I should have faith in the unknown… To never be afraid of the dark, but light a fire within, and keep it burning at all cost.